poetry

That’s something isn’t it?

When I found out

I never cried

 

I was the one

At the altar after you died

 

I am the one

Who took you for my bride

 

I am the one

Who never lied

 

I am the one

Who always tried

 

I am the one

Who’s on your side

 

I share my secrets

With nothing to hide

 

Yours is the love

That gives me pride

 

And that’s something

Isn’t it?

 

Shall – 2018


Angel script

Erased my failed words

The best

Can't describe you

Or how I feel

 

You deserve more

Your own language

Words of praise

Illustrations of love

 

Always inside me

You're who I am

 

Trembling emotions

You're what I do

 

In God's Heaven

You are my why

 

Shall - 2018


Dolores

Deliberate

Conscious

Emotion

You

 

Watermark

Transparent

Crystal

You

 

Untamed

Courageous

Strength

You

 

Intrinsic

Quiescent

Peace

You

 

Fire

Water

Wind

You

 

God

Earth

Love

You

 

Canvas of you

 

Shall – 2018


So what

So what are we to do?

Mortal me

And spirit you

 

Our love our place

Somewhere in time

Our hearts embrace

Consumed in rhyme

 

Promise kept eternal

I can love none else

But you

 

So what my love

Are we to do?

 

Shall - 2018


Caught

You got me I'm caught

I stare a lot

 

I stare because

When I look at you it stops me

And I have to reboot

I'm stolen by love

Filled with smiles

Humbled that you chose me

 

I stare because

You are the most beautiful woman

In the universe

You take yourself for granted

I don't

I can't

 

I stare because

I can't believe I'm so lucky

So blessed

Thankful to God

And you

 

Over and over I marry you

Again each day

Because I can't stand

To be a moment away

Not a moment

 

So I kiss your picture

More than I should

And I stare

 

Shall - 2018


So yours

You tried to end your life

Then you saved mine

 

Not broken

You're perfect

 

Drown in me

Complete me

Take me

I surrender

 

I am so yours

 

Shall - 2018


Happy birthday my love

What your birthday means to me

Sixth day of September 1971

God first kissed you into dawn

My most precious one

I couldn't know I'd love you so

Somewhere in quiet of my soul

I sense and hear you oh

Kiss you soft kisses slow

Think of you all the time

And though this our first

Of your birthdays together

I look forward to loving you

And celebrating your life

Each year until forever

And when end of day

Meets my final sun

I can embrace you in Heaven

Our spirits dance as one

While the ink of our lives

Cures in the tapestry

Of life and ever after

It's you my love

It's you

And what you mean to me

 

Shall - 2018


Flawless

You are in a word

Flawless

 

I've looked close

Every blemish

Freckle or line

Flawless

 

Demand character

Action indiscretion

Flawless

 

God loves this way

Flawless

 

I love you like this

 

Shall - 2018


Freckles

My baby's in Heaven with freckles

She's my only sun

She's the reason I'm alive

And the moment I arrive

I'll hold her close as I can

She'll embrace this weary man

And I'll begin to kiss each one

As I close my eyes and rest

And breathe

 

Shall - 2018


Scars in jars

 Three people know your secrets

God the Devil and you

 

And if you are lucky

One love you sought

And thought you couldn’t find

 

Violation strikes

Terrified and silent

Afraid to move

Afraid to die

Afraid to tell

Become a lie

 

Violation continues

You never spoke

Who would believe

 

You tell yourself

It’s not so bad

You can survive

Then sense the shame

Of being alive

 

So carry a lie

And hope to die

 

Innocence far

Endure the cut

Become the scar

 

Society needs

A tidy tale

A box to tic

So ‘lunatic’

It calls you sick

Your soul sinks lower

Check off ‘bipolar’

 

She’s found sedated

She’s complicated

 

And every sin

You let come in

Another scar

A falling star

 

Until light is gone

You zombie on

Inside your soul

Consuming hole

 

A vacancy

Where you used to be

 

A foolish clown

An empty sound

Scars cut you down

 

God’s graceful way

Yeah sure, you say

Denied for those

Where you have been

Says the punk with a grin

 

Afraid to believe

You’d better leave

No need to breathe

A pointless point

 

You wait to die

A scar stained why

A shameful lie

 

The switch turned off

You float aloft

A call below

Won’t let you go

 

It’s me it’s me

I love you

Can’t you see?

 

With jars and jars

For all our scars

We’ll keep them safely

On a shelf

 

As you and me

Become one self

One soul one love

Kissed up to God

 

One conscience safe

From lives of scars

All stored securely

On a shelf in jars

 

Father God

Loves you so much

Gave me as grace

That you can touch

 

Each day I’ll marry you

In the light

Each day you’ll be

My bride in white

 

We’ll hold each other

Close as one

With tea we’ll toast

A sleeping sun

 

And you will be my dream

You will be my Heaven

 

You will be my queen

And I will be only yours

‘Till time has reached

The end of time

 

Three people know your secrets

God the Devil and you

 

And if you are lucky

One love you sought

And thought you couldn’t find

 

Me

 

 

Shall – 2018

Dedicated with all my love to

Dolores O’Riordan

1971 - 2018


To Dolores

My love I vow

To hold you in the rain

Never allow my love to fade

To see God through your eyes

Need no one else but you

To hold only your hand

Listen to your heart

To always be true

Keep you first in my life

And never let go

 

Shall – 2018


Words

Your words came again today

Held out my hand as they past

They wouldn’t land


Thought of them

Forgot to write them down

Failed to tie them up


They seemed like you

I smiled and paused

They have your way

I love when they come


Try as I might

I can’t get them to land


Then off, there they go

Wonder when they’ll be back

How many will come


I’ll be happy then

Wish they would land

So now I wait

Hmmmm

Words

 

Shall – 2010/2017


Keira Knightley

Put simply

 I find your beauty the most exquisite

That exists on the face of the planet

Or beneath for that matter

Though I’ve held witness so


Your radiance and charming smile

Possess the warmth of every good thing

Still you advance no threat to me

Nor to any light or love near by


For my life would surely expire

Before transcending the distance

Your light travels to reach my world


My hands my heart my soul bare scars

From scratching at brilliance beyond me


My path’s worn heavy my time weary

Yet I see and appreciate the light

 Wishing

Oh God please

Let it last

Always perfect


I shall not love you

Not that I wouldn’t love to

It’s just that my wishes grow few

And tooth far too long


Still

Every time I see you

My heart feels like

It can achieve flight

Shall – 2007/2016


Butterflies in Heaven

 Bullets turn into butterflies in Heaven

So when gangsters wake up there

And try to shoot each other

Only butterflies come out

And finally they see

The senselessness of fear

And the greatness of love

Maybe that’s Heaven

But maybe it’s not

Either way

They’re stuck there


 Shall – 2017


Love thy neighbor

Think about the greatest people in your life

What do they all have in common?


They listen

They encourage

They are always happy to see you

They ask about your day

They take the time

They never seem to have problems

They don’t judge your actions

Or try to solve anything

They are always positive

They are always there

And you are drawn to them


That’s because a life of faith

Is a life of servitude

Everyone has problems

Everyone…

 

Great people

Are not driven by their troubles

What motivates them

Is being there for others

Being there for you

And calming your fears


That’s true greatness

There is potential for greatness

In all of us

 Shall – 2016


Secret to happiness

The natural law of the jungle is every man for himself with a focus on self…

 I need, I desire, I want. I did, I got, I don’t have. I should have, I am entitled to, it’s mine!

 My faults, my weight, my body, my looks, my wealth, my phone, my friends, my image, my pride, my things, my troubles, myself, my, my, my

 There is no bitter person who doesn’t covet life through their own reflection. I lack, begins with I

 There is no gracious person depressed for lack of someone to help. There’s no shortage of need. A parent’s first thought in a car accident is their child

 I find that the less time I spend thinking about me the richer my life becomes. Time is better spent

 Bitterness steals your life your looks your health and leads to discontent. It serves no other purpose. We can’t control life but we can control how we receive it

 So maybe natural law is wrong

Try this law…

 [ infinity – πr2 = happiness ]

 ‘It’s the area outside the circle’

 Let's call it the 'shall law'

 There’s a crazy wonderful life out there, that begins just outside of you


  Shall - 2017


Change and strength

 Do you cry for the end of a chapter

Or for fear of the next one to come

 Or do you exalt in the promise

Only tomorrow can bring

And what if you fall

What if


Look around you

 The strongest people

Have fallen the hardest

And gotten up

 They get it


Assess your path

Distinguish what works

Discard what fails

 Embrace your stride

The quickest path forward

Holds the fewest steps back

 

You can’t embrace your future

If your arms are filled with the past

Put down regret

And pick up tomorrow

 

 Shall – 2016