Angels of the meadow – part 1

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Angels of the meadow

 

They’ll be angels of the meadow

Like their mother

And we’ll give our lives

To light their world

So being a girl is special

As it was meant to be

 

Unlimited

Untouched

By blindness from the past

 

We’ll give them love

That spills from buttercups

And fills our hearts

So they’ll learn

To know their own

 

A1001-2002


 

Watching over you

 

I try to stay awake all night

To watch you sleep

Kiss you when you stir

 

Only to awake in your arms

Warmed by the morning sun

 

I must have drifted off

Somewhere between

Heaven and dawn

 

A1002-2002


 

Of all things

 

Of all the things

I’ve lost since you left

I think I miss hope

The most

 

A1003-2002


 

Damaged goods

 

I’m sorry I wasn’t a better catch

For you to your friends

Guess I didn’t net you a prize

In their eyes

 

Guess I was a void

That left stories unfulfilled

 

So I’ll be gone

And leave it to you

To bend and disguise

Leave it to you

To paint pretty lies

 

A1004-2002


 

Sleep Inn

 

I asked for a wake-up call

At the desk

Of the “Sleep Inn”

 

Then thought

What am I saying?

 

A1005-2002


 

Three consonants and I

 

This shit is his is it?

Is it?

It is?

Shit

 

A1006-2002


 

You

 

The reason

 

Short breath

Can’t concentrate

 

Want to scream

Cry for no reason

 

Want you

Here

Now

Always

More

Bad

 

So much

Constant

Anguish

 

Smiles

Fear

Hate

Concern

Worry

 

Longing

Frustration

Illusion

Dreaming

 

Lust

Hiding

Naked

Uncovered

Confusion

Hunger

 

I’m absent

In your

Not being here

 

You call

I say nothing

 

So shy

Wrecked

Guilty

Shamed

Present

Pleased

 

You hang up

Loss enters

Fills my soul

 

Lonely

Angry

Why?

 

A1007-2002


 

This world of color

 

It’s been three and a-half years

Since my birth

 

Since I returned to a world of color

Where none existed

Through my callus

For 27 years

 

This world of color’s full of beauty

Feeling and warmth

 

Last night I heard

A woman in Nigeria gave birth

Out of wedlock

 

It’s a capitol sin

She would be stoned

 

This world of color’s full of pain

 

My heart’s a freefall of tears

Emotional cascade

Salt rips through the wounds

 

No jest can heal this hurt

There’s no other way to look

 

Can't you see

It’s wrong?

 

Wake up

Escape your black and white

Callused safety world

Live and love and hurt

 

This world of color

Needs our hearts

To beat together

 

A1008-2002


 

Highway

 

Armed with a lethal smile

You blew by as a kiss

 

I hated you

I wanted you

It was mine to challenge

And you took it

With taunting tease

 

Then ran away

On past seventy-five

Way past my fences

Speeding towards danger

 

Forbidden desire

My heart floored to chase

My pulse raced

My wheels soared

But you were gone

 

Still the taste

You

 

A1009-2002


 

Artistic noise

 

It’s like looking in a dictionary

To find a poem

 

For all the words

It’s hard to see

What’s really there

 

A1010-2002


Someone told me

 

Someone told me I couldn't

So I quit

 

Someone told me I was no good

So I stopped trying

 

Someone told me I was fat

So I ate

 

Someone told me I was ugly

So I hid

 

Someone told me I was old

So I waited to die

 

Then a child told me "I love you"

And I cried

 

A1011-2002


 

Citizens of hate

 

I wish my father

Never used those words

In my presence

 

I wish he was proud and brave

 

I wish he’d never lived in fear

Suspicious, disdainful and angry

 

I wish by his subtle actions

He’d never shown me hate

 

I wish those at the tip

Of the lash of his tongue

Were without fault

Of their own

 

I wish their actions at times

Didn’t lend merit

To my father’s views

And at times

Reciprocate them

 

But they and my father

Are human not perfect

 

And as I loved him

I must love them

 

As citizens of hate

We purchase no favor

No tolerance of anger

No allowance to act

 

If you rape and defile

My brothers and sisters

You rape and defile me

 

Hate’s a dagger

We choose to pick up

Or put down

 

A dagger

Of looks words and actions

 

Though I love you

As I loved my father

I can be shamed

By what you do

 

A1012-2002


 

Afraid of the dark

 

We have sex

And our friendship

To fill the gaps

Between love and hate

 

Sensuous challenge

As hot oil

 

Frustration

Sickening sweet

As marmalade

 

Devour flesh

Into ego

Spit back

Seed and bone

 

Consume oxygen

Of flame we need

Flame we share

Flame that owns us

 

Together

We stand alone

 

Afraid of the dark

 

A1013-2002


 

A life of our own

 

We spend so much

Of our time

Paying attention

To how others

Spend so much of their life

 

Which consumes

So much of our time

It becomes our life

 

Placebo

Conciliation

For a life

We might of had

 

A life we could’ve had

Before courage lay slain

 

Pierced by prophecy

Breast fed by fear

We might never have

A life of our own

 

A1014-2002


 

Evermore

 

I love the child you

The woman you

The spirit you

 

I love your soul

 

And I’ll be yours

Beyond the time

When time is time

 

I will love you

Evermore

 

A1015-2003


 

O

 

I find myself

Dreaming of you

 

Eyes blur

Ears ring

Short breath

Sighs

 

It happens

If I let myself go

 

If I could leave this life

In your embrace

Your kiss

Everything sublime

In a moment

 

Eternity dawns

 

Hundreds of words

I’ve exhausted

Trying to tell you

 

It requires

But one letter

O

 

A1016-2003


 

Well-seasoned wood

 

Death

Permeates

Whispers softly

Subtle erosion

Fades

Splits

 

Blood slows

Cold damp

Earthy stillness

Cautious spirit

 

Reflection

Acceptance

Appointment

 

Love’s promise

Meadows and flowers

Light and you

 

I met death once

Looked across

 

Encouraged

Unhurried

Anxious

Unafraid

 

I embrace

Natural cracking

Of wood well-seasoned

 

A1017-2003


 

You have come to me

 

You’ve come to me

Become the sunshine

Of my hearts passion

 

Tears of contentment

Spirit’s turbulence

Essence in hot tea

 

Honey consumed

By only you

 

To caress

To flow unyielding

 

There shall be

No secret place

We can’t go

Together

 

A1018-2003


 

Is this it?

 

Is this what it’s like

When love starts?

 

Curiosity blossoms

Interest peaks

Imagination stirs

 

Cautious desire

Shaken conscious

 

Is this the view

This side of the curve

Emotional landscape

Taste of a moment?

 

Or a mirage?

 

Just

A promise of hope

That disappoints

Again

 

A1019-2003


 

Shaken

 

Silence

My hope’s slowly

But increasingly

Becoming eroded

 

I try to nudge

Startle or awaken it

 

Loneliness lurks

Just off in shadow

Waiting its chance

To consume

 

I face hope for hours

Concern on my brow

Refusing to believe

There’s nothing

To believe in

 

I hate you silence

Leave hope alone

 

Your presence

Isn’t welcome

 

Oh hope

Where have you gone?

Where’s my comfort

My rest?

 

I wish this moment

Would pass

 

Tears

Shaken

 

A1020-2003


 

Vanilla love

 

Take away sticky

Take away sweet

Take away hunger

Take away seductive

Take away passion

Take away anger

Take away hate

Take away lust

 

You get plain old

Vanilla love

 

Flavor to taste

 

A1021-2003


 

Roadkill

 

Shattered fragments

Between the gaps

 

Reflections of love

Scattered art

Laceration

 

Echo without song

Thought flows to tear

Tear runs to blood

Blood runs to nothing

 

With each drop

The heart dies a little

Amidst whispers of soul

Awaiting flies of reality

Like roadkill

 

A1022-2003