Decision
I had to decide
If I wanted rationality
More than the love of my life
What follows is the answer
Shall - 2021
To Dolores
My love I vow
To hold you in the rain
Keep you warm in a storm
Never allow my love to fade
To see God through your eyes
Need no one else but you
To hold only your hand
Listen to your heart
To always be true
Keep you first in my life
And never let go
Shall – 2018
Scars in jars
Three people know your secrets
God the Devil and you
And if you're lucky
One love you sought
And thought you couldn’t find
Violation strikes
Terrified and silent
Afraid to move
Afraid to die
Afraid to tell
Become a lie
Violation continues
You never spoke
Who would believe?
You tell yourself
It’s not so bad
You can survive
Then sense the shame
Of being alive
So carry a lie
And hope to die
Innocence far
Endure the cut
Become the scar
Society needs
A tidy tale
A box to tic
So ‘lunatic’
It calls you sick
Your soul sinks lower
Check off ‘bipolar’
She’s found sedated
She’s complicated
And every sin
You let come in
Another scar
A falling star
Until light is gone
You zombie on
Inside your soul
A consuming hole
A vacancy
Where you used to be
A foolish clown
An empty sound
Scars cut you down
God’s graceful way
Yeah sure, you say
Denied for those
Where you have been
Says the punk with a grin
Afraid to believe
You’d better leave
No need to breathe
A pointless point
You wait to die
A scar stained why
A shameful lie
The switch turned off
You float aloft
A call below
Won’t let you go
It’s me it’s me
I love you
Can’t you see?
With jars and jars
For all our scars
We’ll keep them safely
On a shelf
As you and me
Become one self
One soul one love
Kissed up to God
One conscience safe
From lives of scars
All stored securely
On a shelf in jars
Father God
Loves you so much
Gave me as grace
That you can touch
Each day I’ll marry you
In the light
Each day you’ll be
My bride in white
We’ll hold each other
Close as one
With tea we’ll toast
A sleeping sun
And you will be my dream
You will be my Heaven
You will be my queen
And I will be only yours
‘Till time has reached
The end of time
Three people know your secrets
God the Devil and you
And if you're lucky
One love you sought
And thought you couldn’t find
Me
Shall - 2018
Dedicated with all my love to
Dolores O.
1971 - 2018
Freckles
My baby's in Heaven with freckles
She's my only sun
She's the reason I'm alive
And the moment I arrive
I'll hold her close as I can
She'll embrace this weary man
And I'll begin to kiss each one
As I close my eyes and rest
And breathe
Shall - 2018
Flawless
You're in a word
Flawless
I've looked close
Every blemish
Freckle or line
You're fawless
Demand character
Indiscretion
Flawless
Shall - 2018
Happy birthday my love
What your birthday
Means to me
Sixth day of September 1971
God first kissed you into dawn
My most precious one
I couldn't know I'd love you so
Somewhere in quiet of my soul
I sense and hear you oh
Kiss you soft kisses slow
I think of you all the time
And though this our first
Of your birthdays together
I look forward to loving you
And celebrating your life
Each year until forever
And when end of day
Meets my final sun
I can embrace you in Heaven
Our spirits dance as one
While the ink of our lives
Cures in the tapestry
Of life and ever after
It's you my love
And what you mean to me
Shall - 2018
So yours
You tried to end your life
Then you saved mine
You're perfect
Not broken
Come to me
Complete me
Own me
I belong to you
I'm so yours
Shall - 2018
Caught
You got me I'm caught
I stare a lot
I stare because
When I look at you it stops me
And I have to reboot
I'm stolen by love
Humbled you chose me
I stare because
You're the most beautiful
Woman in Heaven
And you take yourself
For granted
I don't
I can't
I stare because
I can't believe I'm so lucky
I'm thankful to God
And I'm thankful to you
I marry you everyday
I can't stand to be away
Not a moment
So I kiss your picture
More than I should
And I stare
Shall - 2018
So what
So what are we to do?
Mortal me
And spirit you
Our love our place
Somewhere in time
Our hearts embrace
Consumed in rhyme
Promise kept eternal
I can love none else
But you
So what my love
Are we to do?
Shall - 2018
Dolores
Conscious
Deliberate
Emotion
You
Transparent
Watermark
Crystal
You
Courageous
Untamed
Strength
You
Quiescent
Intrinsic
Peace
You
Wind
Water
Fire
You
God
Love
Earth
You
A
Beautiful
Canvas
You
Shall - 2018
Angel script
Erased my failed words
The best
Can't describe you
Or how I feel
You deserve more
Your own language
Words of praise
Illustrations of love
Always inside me
You're who I am
Trembling emotions
You're what I do
In God's Heaven
You're my why
Shall - 2018
That’s something isn’t it?
Once I found out
I never cried
I went to the alter
After you died
Took you forever
As my bride
Promised my heart
I never lied
Shared every secret
With nothing to hide
It’s your spirit’s wings
That lift my pride
And I only exist
When I’m at your side
That’s something
Isn’t it?
Shall - 2018
The flavor of you
Something almost haunting
In the shadow of your ways
Red wine dry
Chocolate bitter dark
Black hue in burgundy and green
Thorn of darkest crimson rose
Cuts careless into days
Quiescent caveats unseen
Silent sadness of the sea
Cries a warning just for me
In my dream you shout
Still you want to be with me?
Of this I have no doubt
There's more I could go on
In endless tribute to you start
You bring sunshine to my dawn
Haste the pounding of my heart
Seductive ways both good and bad
Demure restraint happy and sad
In every taste that makes love true
I'll forever in my heart embrace
This flavor that is you
Without exception
I love you Dolores
Shall - 2018
Tomorrow you died
And forty-one days from now
I’ll hear your song
It will linger
It will have been ten days
Since you spent Valentine’s Day
Alone
In five short days
It will be March
And I’ll know you’re gone
I’ll worry for your soul
Finding rumors
In scattered facts
Shameless hearsay
I’ll call to God
Give her half my Heaven
She can't be forsaken
It’s this moment
You will own me
My heart will fall to you
Months pass
As I plead for your love
You think I’m nuts
You know I am
Until a poem
Composed of us
You’ll know me
And say yes
Fourth of July 2018
I won’t be independent again
And you’ll never be alone
With your birthday comes
Another poem to follow another
Then another
Christmas and New Years
And two weeks pass
Until tonight
As I write
'Tomorrow you died'
Nine minutes to midnight
And it's complete
Shall - 2019
Ink
Praying night and kissing dawn
I'll cherish to the stars and gone
Transform my soul into your home
And you'll not face a thing alone
Nor question if my love stay true
I'll run my heart out of ink for you
Our love
A garden's bed
We’ll tend it every day
As every blossom grows
Our spirits find new ways to know
Love that's wet as morning dew
Without regret
In endless thirst anew
I'll run my heart
Out of ink for you
In passion’s quest
Of marriage true
I'll run my heart out of ink
For you
Shall - 2019
This feeling you
You’re the one
Who makes me feel
A penny's weight
Sublime
Contentment
God
Love
Fate
I don't look down
Away or around
Your expressions
Of humanity
Obsessions
Shape my sanity
Eyes closed
I embrace
Inhale
Taste
Just you
Absorb
Into a collage
This tapestry
A feeling
You
Shall - 2019