06 Jonathan Warbel visit 7

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Jonathan Warbel Visit 7

 

 Doctor

 

 Assuming you’re not "them"

And I am not "they"

 

 And you're not

Punching out strawberries

 

 And I’m not nuts for believing

 

 What are your thoughts?

 

 

 Punching out strawberries?

 

 That's an odd metaphor

Where did it come from?

 

 

 I don’t know

I’ve no idea

 

 

 You've heard of the Hubble?

HST as they say?

 

 The house that Jack built?

NASA?

 

 Technical faults and delays

Unfortunate Challenger loss

 

 Way over budget

 

 Twenty years from start

Until 1990 found it broken

 

 Main mirror ground incorrectly

 

 Do you know why Randall?

 

 

 The lens was blurred?

 

 

 No

 

 The lens saw the truth

So it was corrected

 

 Adjusted

Aligned to fit the template

 

 By 1993 it saw

What it was supposed to see

 

 The mission served its purpose

 

 Truth avoided errors dismissed

 

 Not all the errors were erased

Some were intentionally misplaced

 

 And some were shared

Though the context was modified

 

 Develop a system

Of weights and measures

 

 Once you decide on an inch

And build a ruler

No one questions the inch

 

 It’s assumed to be precise

 

 And precise it is but not accurate

 

 You know this conversation

Has nothing to do with a yard stick

 

 Right?

 

 My mind dabbles here and there

The subject becomes un-constant

 

 

 You mean inconsistent?

 

 

 I mean

I was shown the truth

 

 But the truth had changed

 

 And now the looking glass

Saw something else entirely

 

 I wanted desperately to see it

 

 But the truth made my study a lie

 

 It pitted my desire to see

Against my will to discover

 

 My quest of discovery

Spanned many regressive models

 

 Depending upon which medium

Which data and assumptions

 

 Regressive means to go back

 

 Science assigns a pattern

 

 A data point map

Of a process in reverse

 

 From its present point

To its previous location

 

 Then project forward

From the information gathered

 

 It’s an extrapolation or prediction

Of where the successive points

Might likely follow

 

 It’s a way of mapping a process

Before it's actually happened

 

 Some models stall others succeed

 

 That’s the hope anyway

 

 It was Gaussian process regression

That revealed the Warbel effect

 

 Gaussian process

Doesn’t assume a pattern

It lets the data speak for itself

 

 My data consisted of error

What's not present but should be

 

 The absence of data

By common standards

 

 It’s what you have with a lie

Or preferably two lies

 

 The more information the better

 

 You must let the data speak

 

 Make what assumptions you can

Add and subtract facts and noise

 

 Regress back then project forward

 

 My primary suspicion

The Civil were affecting my choices

 

 Projections of balance and orbit

Fidelity and celestial grace

 

 I pretended to embrace it

 

 Truth of their truth became clear

A discomfiting truth

 

 Their intentions were apocalyptic

And I was to be their mule

 

 Mental instability

Presented a rational escape

 

 I don’t know if they knew then

But they know now

 

 So you see Randall

 

 Either you’ve been empowered

Or sacrificed by my friendship

 

 Today I’ve told you no lies

 

 Time for us both to go home

 

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Randall

 

Time to go home

Sounded like goodbye

 

Was it?

 

Caught in the pace

I’d dismissed an ending

 

I hadn’t considered it

 

So much left

 

Questions

 

Where from here?

 

How?

 

What?

 

Who?

 

Who was my only known

 

The Civil

 

Can I stop them?

 

Can I save him?

 

What do I have

They can use?

 

I can’t identify them

What can I prove?

 

Think

Let the data speak

 

List assumptions

 

They sent me to Warbel

Told me about the calendar

 

They know I know

 

What do they want?

Control balance?

 

Warbel blocked them

 

So they’re using me now

To get to him

 

Or get around him

 

To preserve his block

He must be crazy

 

He must remain so

 

I’ll write about him

Honor his achievements

 

Confirm his delusion

And wait

 

Sounds reasonable

 

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Intra-Care 3

 

 Behavioral Health Center

 

 Mr. Sparks

Please have a seat in the lounge

 

 

 Is there a problem?

 

 

 Mr. Williams will see you there

 

 

 (Everyone behind the counter

Lasered on their work

 

 Bad sign

 

 An early tell

When someone’s gone

 

 Unfortunate task

Reserved for the receptionist

When death makes an entrance

 

 Compelled to wait

For news you don’t want

That you already know

 

 It’s a checkbox

 

 Here he comes)

 

 

 Mr. Sparks I’m Pastor Williams

 

 You were a friend to Jonathan?

 

 

 It’s Randall father

 

 He’s gone?

 

 

 Yes I'm sorry

It started just after midnight

 

 He passed at 4:12 this morning

 

 It was his heart

They say it swelled and failed

 

 Doctor said it was Edema

 

 He’s gone home

 

 Is there anything you need?

 

 Any questions?

 

 

 No needs Pastor

 

 But I don’t understand

 

 Was it expected?

 

 Were there signs?

 

 Did he have a history?

 

 

 Not to our knowledge

 

 Edema’s typically chronic

But no reference

 

 Nothing in his records

 

 His affects were in order

Perhaps he knew and didn't say

 

 Sometimes they don’t

Out of fear

 

 Being hooked to a machine

Being unable to get off

 

 This Saturday

We’ll hold his service

 

 Again I am so sorry

 

 

 Thanks Pastor

 

 I’m sure you’re right

 

 I’m sure he's gone home

 

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Pounding moments

 

Warbel wasn’t sick

Wasn’t suffering

 

He knew

 

Accepted his fate

 

“They wouldn’t think twice”

 

Next?

 

I’m not ready

 

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Stop

 

What now?

 

The path’s end

Strands

 

Awake

Aware

Alert

 

Fate

I don’t accept it

I won’t be prey

 

Hospital

Tiled floors

 

Antiseptic

Brick

Loud

Cold

 

Alone

 

Susan

 

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Dawn on the shade

 

He’s still dead

The world keeps going

 

His funeral

 

The article

 

Coffee

Bitter

 

Time for new coffee

 

Death

Is silence

In the noise of life

 

Can you hear it?

 

Listen

 

“It’s a joke son

Try to keep up”

 

I hear you doc

 

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