Jonathan Warbel Visit 7
Doctor
Assuming you’re not "them"
And I am not "they"
And you're not
Punching out strawberries
And I’m not nuts for believing
What are your thoughts?
Punching out strawberries?
That's an odd metaphor
Where did it come from?
I don’t know
I’ve no idea
You've heard of the Hubble?
HST as they say?
The house that Jack built?
NASA?
Technical faults and delays
Unfortunate Challenger loss
Way over budget
Twenty years from start
Until 1990 found it broken
Main mirror ground incorrectly
Do you know why Randall?
The lens was blurred?
No
The lens saw the truth
So it was corrected
Adjusted
Aligned to fit the template
By 1993 it saw
What it was supposed to see
The mission served its purpose
Truth avoided errors dismissed
Not all the errors were erased
Some were intentionally misplaced
And some were shared
Though the context was modified
Develop a system
Of weights and measures
Once you decide on an inch
And build a ruler
No one questions the inch
It’s assumed to be precise
And precise it is but not accurate
You know this conversation
Has nothing to do with a yard stick
Right?
My mind dabbles here and there
The subject becomes un-constant
You mean inconsistent?
I mean
I was shown the truth
But the truth had changed
And now the looking glass
Saw something else entirely
I wanted desperately to see it
But the truth made my study a lie
It pitted my desire to see
Against my will to discover
My quest of discovery
Spanned many regressive models
Depending upon which medium
Which data and assumptions
Regressive means to go back
Science assigns a pattern
A data point map
Of a process in reverse
From its present point
To its previous location
Then project forward
From the information gathered
It’s an extrapolation or prediction
Of where the successive points
Might likely follow
It’s a way of mapping a process
Before it's actually happened
Some models stall others succeed
That’s the hope anyway
It was Gaussian process regression
That revealed the Warbel effect
Gaussian process
Doesn’t assume a pattern
It lets the data speak for itself
My data consisted of error
What's not present but should be
The absence of data
By common standards
It’s what you have with a lie
Or preferably two lies
The more information the better
You must let the data speak
Make what assumptions you can
Add and subtract facts and noise
Regress back then project forward
My primary suspicion
The Civil were affecting my choices
Projections of balance and orbit
Fidelity and celestial grace
I pretended to embrace it
Truth of their truth became clear
A discomfiting truth
Their intentions were apocalyptic
And I was to be their mule
Mental instability
Presented a rational escape
I don’t know if they knew then
But they know now
So you see Randall
Either you’ve been empowered
Or sacrificed by my friendship
Today I’ve told you no lies
Time for us both to go home
06001
Randall
Time to go home
Sounded like goodbye
Was it?
Caught in the pace
I’d dismissed an ending
I hadn’t considered it
So much left
Questions
Where from here?
How?
What?
Who?
Who was my only known
The Civil
Can I stop them?
Can I save him?
What do I have
They can use?
I can’t identify them
What can I prove?
Think
Let the data speak
List assumptions
They sent me to Warbel
Told me about the calendar
They know I know
What do they want?
Control balance?
Warbel blocked them
So they’re using me now
To get to him
Or get around him
To preserve his block
He must be crazy
He must remain so
I’ll write about him
Honor his achievements
Confirm his delusion
And wait
Sounds reasonable
06002
Intra-Care 3
Behavioral Health Center
Mr. Sparks
Please have a seat in the lounge
Is there a problem?
Mr. Williams will see you there
(Everyone behind the counter
Lasered on their work
Bad sign
An early tell
When someone’s gone
Unfortunate task
Reserved for the receptionist
When death makes an entrance
Compelled to wait
For news you don’t want
That you already know
It’s a checkbox
Here he comes)
Mr. Sparks I’m Pastor Williams
You were a friend to Jonathan?
It’s Randall father
He’s gone?
Yes I'm sorry
It started just after midnight
He passed at 4:12 this morning
It was his heart
They say it swelled and failed
Doctor said it was Edema
He’s gone home
Is there anything you need?
Any questions?
No needs Pastor
But I don’t understand
Was it expected?
Were there signs?
Did he have a history?
Not to our knowledge
Edema’s typically chronic
But no reference
Nothing in his records
His affects were in order
Perhaps he knew and didn't say
Sometimes they don’t
Out of fear
Being hooked to a machine
Being unable to get off
This Saturday
We’ll hold his service
Again I am so sorry
Thanks Pastor
I’m sure you’re right
I’m sure he's gone home
06003
Pounding moments
Warbel wasn’t sick
Wasn’t suffering
He knew
Accepted his fate
“They wouldn’t think twice”
Next?
I’m not ready
06004
Stop
What now?
The path’s end
Strands
Awake
Aware
Alert
Fate
I don’t accept it
I won’t be prey
Hospital
Tiled floors
Antiseptic
Brick
Loud
Cold
Alone
Susan
06005
Dawn on the shade
He’s still dead
The world keeps going
His funeral
The article
Coffee
Bitter
Time for new coffee
Death
Is silence
In the noise of life
Can you hear it?
Listen
“It’s a joke son
Try to keep up”
I hear you doc
06006