Friday’s kiss – part 1

Angels of the meadow cover picture

Friday’s kiss

 

Loving you

Is the truth of me

 

I am exactly pleased

Love finds no measure

 

I want new love

That touches Heaven

 

I won’t hold back

Give you everything

 

Thoughts as rain

Petals below your steps

Kiss you with flowers

And love you exactly

 

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You make life a love poem

 

If you asked me

Could I find a new way

To say ‘I love you’ everyday

I wouldn’t say no

 

I don’t believe in impossible

But I’d wonder how

 

I’ve no idea when I start

Sometimes I can’t think

I begin and it begins

 

Since you

Life’s become a poem

I write as I go

 

 You make life a love poem

 

I love you for it

And always will

 

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Time

 

Oh time

What have you done to me?

 

What years

Have you chained me to?

 

What era

Have you trapped me in?

 

What did I ever do to you?

 

Besides waste you

Take you for granted

Ignore you completely

And blame you for death

 

‘It must have been her time’

 

Now you’re killing me

Stealing from me

I can’t trust you anymore

You must be stopped

 

You pull at my skin

Haunt my bones

You can’t reach my soul

 

Take what you can, time

 

I’ll never give you

So much as a moment

Again

 

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I’m scared too

 

Never felt like this

It’s all so new

Maybe I’m scared too

 

So many things unfamiliar

Confusion surrounds

 

My fears scream

Ripping holes in me

Emotions dance in flames

 

Think you were the only one

Too frightened to move?

 

Did you think I was calm

Or unafraid to love?

 

F1004-2005


 

For anything

 

For all who read me

Think tragic and sad

 

How foolish my smiles

Selfish my wants

Defective my life

Good and bad

 

These

Are the sounds of my love

Songs that make me live

 

I wouldn’t trade them

For safety

 

I wouldn’t trade them

For anything

 

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Connections

 

Closer to you

 

Yeah

That’s what I want

 

Digital pulses

Brain waves

Microwaves

 

Concerns

Thoughts

Feelings

Worries

 

Working

Melting

Blending

Tearing sky

 

Bring us close

To say, hey you!

 

Smiles

 

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Words

 

Came by again today

 

Held out my hand

As they flew past

But they wouldn’t land

 

For a moment

I thought of them

Forgot to write them down

 

They seemed like you

I smiled and watched

 

Your words

Have their own way

I love when they come

 

Try as I may

I can’t get them to land

Then off, they’re gone

 

I think of them

Pause and wonder

When they’ll return

How many will come

 

I’ll be happy then

 

Bet they still won’t land

I keep watching

Hmmmm

 

F1007-2005


 

Snowfall

 

Impure

 

Surface water

Must be filtered

 

Snowfall

Painful memory

Blankets mountains

Shameful thoughts

Settle in valleys

Of frozen souls

Unworthy

 

Still life

 

Sunlight peeks

Through angry clouds

 

Tears form streams

Erode soil and numb

Cut through rocks

Exposing heart

 

Crystal pure pools

Of filtered love

Find home

 

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Love me

 

World of want

Falls on deaf ears

Not that they can’t hear

 

They don’t listen

 

Time served

From a teapot of haste

Noisy lust filled plates

Tiny cups of disillusion

 

Tattered sensitivity

Falls as simple crumbs

 

From holes in pockets

Forgotten there

Never missed

 

The score is love-love

Zero-zero

Without the nail

That held time to the wall

 

Can you see me

In all this sound?

Can you reach me

Within nothingness?

 

Affection beneath paint

Applied to hide tagging

 

My minute fell off the bridge

And I can’t reach it

 

Why don’t you call?

Where are you?

 

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Not me

 

I’ve gone away

No need to hang around

Feel what it’s like inside

 

Pretend I’m not there

Let the knocking continue

It stops

 

What’s up?

Liar

 

You don’t want to know

 

Get away

I don’t have to tell you

 

I’m dead, get it?

I don’t exist

It doesn’t matter

 

Think you’ve touched real?

You failed

 

I choose

Who I let in

 

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Earth hear the heart

 

Earthheartheheart

Arthhearthehearte

Rthheartheheartea

Thheartheheartear

Hhearthehearteart

 

Hhearthehearteart

Earthheartheheart

Arthhearthehearte

Rthheartheheartea

 

Thheartheheartear

Hhearthehearteart

Earthheartheheart

 

Hhearthehearteart

Earthheartheheart

Arthhearthehearte

Rthheartheheartea

Thheartheheartear

 

F1011-2005


 

After a train

 

I don’t feel the sound

Of your love around

 

A short while

After a train

Wind whispers

Birds report

Rain sweeps in

To clean up

 

Thoughts silent

I wait to see if it’s safe

Tears stand in the wings

Absent understanding

 

Were you a dream?

Will I wake in death?

 

I can’t feel the sun

Where did emotion go?

What’s wrong?

 

I sit in the rain

Put on my socks and shoes

 

I didn’t write you

Because you didn’t write me

Instead I wrote this

 

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Since this poem began

 

You’re a unicorn

So am I

Ours is a search

For imaginary love

 

When this poem began

I’d searched for you

And written to you

For twenty-nine years

 

When this poem began

You’d searched for me

And written back

For nineteen years

 

When this poem began

Thirteen years

And two worlds

Would keep us apart

 

We’d never meet

When you were alive

 

When this poem began

It was called ‘Unicorn’

That was fifteen years ago

The name has changed

 

Since this poem began

It’s changed

I’ve changed

You’ve died

We’ve married

And I no longer write

For anyone but you

 

We found our love

 

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He will die on that chain

 

Old man

Sleeps on a hammock

Everyone waits for him

To turn the other shoe

 

He begins each day

Waiting for lightning to strike

 

If he talks to you, he’s dirty

Dirty old dirty man

Dirty old man

 

Honor stolen by time

He lives on a chain

Called society

 

Children taunt

Beyond the perimeter

Of his rage

 

Old man tries to recall

What it’s like not to bite

Not to want to

Not to fall or hate

 

Lunging at the chain

To loosen the stake

His collar chokes and cuts

 

Old man seeks friendship

In a world without mouths

 

He digs rabid into earth

At the bottom of his fence

 

They say he buries bones

Slips back from his window

Lives inside his silence

 

Old man

Sleeps in a hammock

Everyone waits for him

To turn the other shoe

 

Unseen

In a suspicious world

 

F1014-2005


So I spoke

 

If I say I like you

It could simply mean

I like you

 

And if I say

You ‘stopped’ me

Well that just means

Every thought I had

Is gone now

And you’re all that’s left

 

Now the hard part

Being honest about it

 

Do you think it’s easy

To expose what you feel?

 

So much could go wrong

 

Oven fresh hot rolls

Turned to cold rejection

Filthy suspicion

 

Salacious world

One-track expectations

Stockyard at auction

Guilty projection

 

I’m not that world

 

It’s not easy to smile

Look beyond my flaws

And take a chance

 

What if

You felt the same?

 

What if

It was the right time to ask

And I cowered in silence?

 

What if you did too?

 

I regret

What a sad world thinks

But I might be able

To care about you

 

So I spoke

 

F1015-2005


 

So beautiful

 

Is blue lighter than green?

Its wavelength is shorter

 

And what about hue

Saturation and depth?

 

Is dark red deeper

Than deep purple?

 

If beauty is skin deep

What’s the depth of skin?

 

If one is beautiful inside

Does it make them skinny?

 

I saw someone beautiful

Do you ever just know?

 

Outside she was intimidating

I mean really beautiful

It flowed out of her voice

 

Is the heart made of skin?

Why do some eyes shine?

 

Maybe skin beautiful

Is not the same thing

As soul beautiful

 

I loved someone I never met

I still do and still haven’t

It was dismissed

 

She’s still beautiful

How does that work?

 

Is some love lighter?

 

And what about hue

Saturation and depth?

 

Is deep love deeper

Than dark love?

 

Is blue love sadder?

 

Lost could be found

In her eyes

 

She was so beautiful

 

F1016-2005


 

I’m you

 

Like is a light shade of love

 

Why do we say

‘blinded by love’?

 

We don’t say ‘deafened’

 

Beauty doesn’t have

To meet the eye at all

 

I’ll hate that I wrote this

 

People love you

As long as it doesn’t hurt

 

There’s no such thing

As a dishonest mistake

 

Fewer promises you make

The fewer you break

 

It’s not that you simply forgot

You just didn’t remember

 

Sometimes I don’t answer

Because I’d have to grow up

And I don’t want to

 

I don’t want to be loved

I want to be love

 

My truths are forced initially

 

Because I don’t know

Is a reason

 

If you want to touch me

I’ll need to know why

 

Perfection without flaw

Is replication

 

Don’t be ‘well’ for me

 

I hate you

I love you

I’m you

 

F1017-2005