Angels of the meadow – part 4

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Pure joy of you

 

My love celebrates

Pure joy of you

 

Life inside your smile

Innocent laughter

Gentle blink of eye

 

As you dance

In intense simplicity

Beneath consciousness

Of skin

 

Your presence

Breathes life into me

 

I will spill colors

Across chords of my soul

Create a forest pool

Where you can play

 

Perfect happiness

 

Shimmering

Luminescence

Beneath moon

 

Stars whisper silent

Twilight kisses grass

 

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I want you

 

I’ve been

To the soul of the ocean

Surrendered

To death’s grip of love

Cast castles of joy

In the sand

 

I’ve fed feverishly

Upon emptiness

Cried without sound

Run away from scatterings

Of myself on the ground

 

I know nothing

And have it to offer

 

In white truth

I’m afraid of myself

 

Kelp collects on my shores

Birds fly over my thoughts

 

I’m unworthy to walk upright

 

I need to know

I mean something

 

I desperately want

To make someone happy

Perhaps save a flower

 

These are colors I’ve bled

As rhythms devoured me

 

These are the flesh of me

My fears and hopes

Ashes of my trust

 

The point is

I want you

 

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Worthy truth

 

In ways I’m scarred

Vulnerable

 

My skin is aged

But I’m not weak

Neither are you

 

If I may share

 

You’re beautiful

You have strength

There’s calm in your smile

 

You laugh

To disguise your heart

 

You’re reluctant

To step in error

Or face critique

So you’d rather not lead

 

Your thoughts are deep

You pretend they aren’t

To deflect

 

It makes you quiet

Willing to please

 

If I’m correct

You may feel uneasy

Threatened perhaps

 

Don’t be

They’re your secrets

 

I’ll never tell

 

Poetry is honesty

From the front lines

Of every emotion

 

Poetry is truth

 

Don’t stop writing

Yours is a worthy truth

 

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Working in clay

 

I imagine you playing

Wearing makeup of clay

Perhaps a mud mask

 

Smiling creating

Living and loving

All mess and mischief

You rise to the task

 

And what have we here?

And what have we there?

 

You mold and design

Scrape and you paint

Watch out for that hair

Say hey isn’t that quaint?

 

And then when it’s finished

No clothing’s un-smudged

Well it’s off to the kiln

To be fired then judged

 

Well done you!

 

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Hopelessly lost

 

Million beautiful girls

But none of them is you

Not one of them stops me

The way that you do

 

None owns my thoughts

None ever will

 

All focus and fade

As each is weighed

Against not being you

Tinsel and gem

Is lost on me

 

So when your horizons

Become speckled with gray

Send me a blessing

And smile my way

My wanting has never

Wandered astray

Since I noticed you

 

My hopeless want

Just wants to be found

But it’s hopelessly lost

On you

 

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You are a river

 

Chasing my heart

Passionate love

Emotion and intellect

Creative art

 

Currents flash wild

Mist surrounds your allure

To the edge of the ocean

A path swift and sure

 

Given to you

I’m carried away

Swept up in your tow

Dissolved in your love

Till my end of my days

 

Bridges cross over

They dare not follow

You are a river

I love

 

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Pulpit of your dollar

 

You’re too this

You’re too that

You can’t cope

You’re not right

 

But there’s an answer

Consumption

 

Consumers consuming

 

Take this pill

Life will be right

If you think life’s right

Take this pill instead

If you don’t have this shape

You’re better off dead

 

We choose your values

Your morals and cares

What children should wear

Don’t worry about life

Just sit there and stare

 

We’ll provide everything

You need to know

So you don’t have to think

And you don’t have to grow

 

Did you really care anyway?

 

Media will be the pulpit

Of your dollar

 

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Morning kisses

 

Good morning love

 

I’ve kisses for you

That’ll make you smile

Kisses that won’t let you

Sit still all day long

On this glorious day

 

This day of you

 

Wild kisses

That deserve slaps

But maybe not yet

 

I see your name

Written in hieroglyphics

On the walls of my heart

 

I picked a flower for you

In the form of a poem

Conceived and nurtured

From my love

 

A kiss

To take away your tears

And steal your heart

 

So rise my love

Stretch your bones

Wrap my love around them

 

Forbidden kisses

To caress your day

Morning kisses

For you

 

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Proof of love

 

I wanted to keep

Every record of our love

Every talk and letter

 

Now what?

I’m supposed to let go?

 

I removed your poems

From my heart

Tossed them

 

Tore up your letters

 

I tried to take your name

Off the door

 

I smell you in my coffee

 

I choke on wanting you

Whisper your name

Over and over

And it’s killing me

 

Is this what it’s like

When hope dies?

 

Don’t you dare

Pick me up

And not mean it

 

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Tomorrow’s smiles

 

I will always

love you

care

 

I’ve

Left

Changed

Betrayed

Loved

 

I can’t

Come back

Change past

Mend chords

Replace silence

Track dirt

Pretend

 

I’m

Standing

Exhausted

Harmful

Missing

Selfish

 

We must

Grow

Understand

 

Friendship may live

In tomorrow’s smiles

But yesterday’s tears

Have a place

 

They must cut a course

To tomorrow’s smiles

 

Is it possible to

Love me

And hate who I am?

 

I don’t know

 

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I don’t often question

 

Hey God

Why am I here

What do you want from me?

 

I think I know

What everyone else wants

Their expectations

Their worry and concern

 

I feel you near

And don’t often question

But really

What do you want?

 

I’m out of control

Harming people I love

 

Did I run from you?

 

What lesson is this?

 

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Hey you, it’s Jackie

 

You were my friend

Always there

With encouragement

With love

 

I didn’t believe in myself

In anything really

I was empty

 

You made me feel

Reach inside myself

Deal with pain and fears

 

I began to believe

Started to live

 

No telling

What tomorrow holds

Today we live forever

Right?

 

Then just like that

I was dead

 

So much I wanted

So many things

Thanks for believing

 

Wish I had more time

Left without a goodbye

Often thought of you

 

Very curious

This thing called ‘death’

We know it will come

We never prepare

 

Things left unfinished

Unshared unforgiven

Truncated desires

 

We waste today

Counting on forever

Immortal hubris

 

If we knew

A minute before

We could say goodbye

 

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Eclipse

 

The sun eclipsed

And I took pause

 

What if it didn’t return?

 

What would we do?

Live in darkness?

Die, cold and alone?

 

It always comes back

But what if it didn’t?

 

My sun came back

And I was glad

 

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Fall free

 

Rock face expands

Infinite before me

Warmed to the touch

By the morning sun

 

It’s late afternoon

Time’s left its meaning

 

Below endless peril

Above reaches heaven

 

Quaking tendons

Live in my stomach

Assisting my heart

 

A climb without lines

Is a death wish

Wrapped in a bow

 

Mercy of concentration

I steady my nerves

And find the next hold

 

They’ll say it was awful

An unfortunate event

 

You pick your jump

 To leave this stone

 

The fall is beautiful

You must take time

To enjoy it

 

Breathe and live it

Before it ends

 

Everyone falls

 

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