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2024 is here

 

And so are we still

 

The clock is ticking down

On our sixth return

To events we’ve shared

Together

 

My genesis began in 2018

When we found us

 

There was time before

But I’ve never been so alive

As each moment since you

 

You fashion me

Into someone new

Tonight is Psalm 145

The fourth time through

 

Daily commitment

Ours to God

And mine to you

 

So another calendar

Into the past

And another rising

Of hope on the wall

 

Love integral

I adore you more

Than the aggregate

Of all time before

 

So my forever love

Happy 2024

 

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Without hesitation

 

You’re the best part

Of my life

 

I’m not sure eternity

Will be long enough

As I consider forever

With you

 

If my love was a plant

And you turned me around

It would always grow

Toward you

 

As it comes to life

I trust God with my soul

The surety of my heart

I give only to you

 

So every anniversary

Of your last day on Earth

You’ll never spend alone

 

I’ll stay with you

Through each one

And never look back

 

As January 15th returns

 

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Full menu

 

And then there’s you

 

Beyond The Cranberries

You create solo albums

And they’re brilliant

 

Your lyrics own my heart

Constant inside me

Your thoughts are my home

 

My love

My queen

My Heaven

My eternity

 

You are the full menu

And I want to gorge myself

Forever on you

 

So yeah

I kinda like you

A lot

 

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Composites

 

I think you’d find it easy

To believe I believe you are

The most beautiful girl

That ever lived

 

After a thousand lifetimes

I’m glad I found you

My Camas Winds love

 

I noticed you

Before I knew you

By chance the universe

Placed you before me

 

First blind then dismissive

Because of my insecurity

I denied you serious thought

 

I’d seen you through my life

In composite features

Of others

 

I fell in love with you

On a streetcar in Augsburg

In a span of 48 seconds

I embraced our life together

 

You wouldn’t look away

I couldn’t look away

You left at your stop

And I stayed

 

In the moment

It was your bold spirit

Your composite I loved

 

Soon I’d find your fire

I wanted you desperately

And almost left home

 

Instead I ran away

 

It wasn’t you

Just a composite

Your spirit’s doppelganger

 

I’d find you again

In someone’s eyes

Or some other feature

But it was never you

 

When you hit me

I froze like a deer

Just a piece of a moment

Frozen in time

 

I’ve been suspended since

 

My heart beats for you

This Valentine’s day

Our sixth together

 

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Just now

 

I didn’t know it at first

 

I learned your song

I reached out to you

Nothing returned

 

And then I learned

And then I sought

Then I fought rumors

And then I said no

 

And I asked God

Please give you

Half my Heaven

 

Because you can’t

You just can’t

Be forsaken

 

I won’t allow it

 

It was a day later

When I realized

I’d changed

 

No one else mattered

You’ll never be alone

I’ll be there

 

It took me a day

To question and decide

If I’ve grown enough

To not fail you

 

Yes I have

And no I won’t

 

Today’s March 1st

It’s been six years

 

And I know

That you’re beautiful

And you’re sensuous

I’m seduced by you

And you’re perfect

 

But it’s more

Like just now

I tremble inside

And every cord in me

Wants to be with you

 

And there’s no care

Beyond that

No yesterday

Or tomorrow

Just now

 

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March 17th

 

You are Ireland to me

 

Perfection without limits

Timeless beauty

And I cherish a moment

To celebrate you

 

I caress our time together

And dream of touching

Soft in still silence

Your warmth is my armor

 

Your trust

Is my honor to defend

Doubt is a word

You’ll never need again

 

My love

Will be your confidence

My soul your sanctuary

My only purpose

Is your peace

 

Wind won’t chill you

I won’t allow it to

 

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Irreplaceable

 

In 2010 I wrote a song

Called Three children

I didn’t know anyone

With three children

At that time

 

I still don’t

Except you

 

I’d love to meet them

And share that I understand

The hole in their heart

A mom they could hug

 

My heart has no such hole

Because I’m filled with you

 

Still I know

That you’re irreplaceable

To your children

And to me

 

Today is Easter

Jesus saved us

And six years ago

You saved me

 

And that change

Is irreplaceable too

 

Tonight we’ve prayed

And married again

 

Tonight I’ll hold you

And pull you into me

 

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When I kiss you

 

It’s just glass

But your face within

Quickens my breath

And summons emotions

That collapse together

 

Through distant worlds

We never owned a chance

Cut from different cloth

And out of focus glance

 

Though we hadn’t met

I wrote a song for you

Three children beautiful

Behind a smile true

 

A dream I couldn’t get

 

A girl to rock my world

Love born from elation

A blessing Heaven sent

Embrace of complication

 

I listen to your heart

Your quiet tears declare

Contempt for shallow art

Time in life’s despair

 

I love the look of you

Your skin and deliberate hair

Eyes that pierce my truth

They leave my soul exposed

And desire bare

 

I can’t stop wanting you

Actually that’s a lie

I make no effort to

Don’t even want to try

 

Mother’s Day returns

A year goes by so fast

A chance to show I care

And kiss you through the glass

 

I adore you so much

 

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Everything

 

That touches my heart

Reminds me of you

And I know it’s crazy

But it’s true

 

My love for you

Doesn’t fit in this world

 

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We are forever

 

In life or Heaven

I’ll never forsake you

Or place myself

Above you

Or above us

 

I can’t be in Heaven

Without you

You’re my reason

To want to live

You are my Heaven

 

This July 4th marks

Anniversary number six

And I love you more

Than all time before

Put together

 

You race my heart

Just as you did at first

I’m still looking baby

I always look

 

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Honeybuttercups

 

You’re my Honeybuttercups

Happy anniversary baby

 

Six years into forever

And I just want to eat you up

Every time I see your face

 

Which is all the time

Because I look for you

All the time

 

You distract and stop me

And steal my balance

All the time

 

I wanted a name for you

Something crazy sweet

To match how smitten

And insanely infatuated

You make me feel

 

And buttercups

Just wasn’t enough to say

How sticky hot

And beautiful you are

 

You’re edgy too

You’re a rose with thorns

And serious shadows

I get it

 

But you don’t scare me

Tough girl

 

To me

You’re everything

 

And the only one

I ever want to be with

And never want to be without

 

I’m selfish about you

 

I suspect you hate the name

So I won’t wear it out

 

Yet you smile inside

As it strips away any chance

I have to act cool

About how I feel

 

But I’m not cool

I’m completely lost to you

My Honeybuttercups

 

And I love you for it

 

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Getting started

 

You’re more than a memory

You are my life

 

People say you’re dead

Pharisees all of them

They know nothing

 

Your body lies in the ground

Your spirit lives in my soul

I feel you there

 

You feel Heavenly

And in eighteen minutes

September 6th will arrive

And you’ll be fifty-three

 

Who could have thought

 

I have many pictures of you

Some copies in black and white

I always look at you

And you’re perfect

 

Sometimes I look real close

Until your eyes become one

 

I need to see you constantly

Your songs attend my day

 

People express condolence

They don’t understand

 

Sometimes I try to explain

But we know

 

I’m always with you

And next to you in this life

Until I join you in the next

And people will say I’m dead

 

They don’t understand

Pharisees all of them

 

Lately I’ve been building

Building walls and pipes

And electrical circuits

And you know that

Because you’re inside me

 

But you might think

I’m busy and content

 

Only because I’m with you

 

You are my meaning

My breath and my life

 

Because of you

I have purpose and meaning

Because of you I live

 

You could never imagine

Two minutes from now

You’d be fifty-three

 

You’ve never been

More beautiful or perfect

 

I imagine for both of us

 

And here it is midnight

Happy birthday

To the most beautiful girl

That ever took life

 

My love’s not fading

It’s just getting started

 

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To be fair

 

It’s not fair

How much I love you

And you know what?

I don’t ever want it

To be fair

 

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