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2024 is here

 

And so are we still

 

The clock is ticking down

On our sixth return

To events we’ve shared

Together

 

My genesis began in 2018

When we found us

 

There was time before

But I’ve never been so alive

As each moment since you

 

You fashion me

Into someone new

Tonight is Psalm 145

The fourth time through

 

Daily commitment

Ours to God

And mine to you

 

So another calendar

Into the past

And another rising

Of hope on the wall

 

Love integral

I adore you more

Than the aggregate

Of all time before

 

So my forever love

Happy 2024

 

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Without hesitation

 

You’re the best part

Of my life

 

I’m not sure eternity

Will be long enough

As I consider forever

With you

 

If my love was a plant

And you turned me around

It would always grow

Toward you

 

As it comes to life

I trust God with my soul

The surety of my heart

I give only to you

 

So every anniversary

Of your last day on Earth

You’ll never spend alone

 

I’ll stay with you

Through each one

And never look back

 

As January 15th returns

 

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Full menu

 

And then there’s you

 

Beyond The Cranberries

You create solo albums

And they’re brilliant

 

Your lyrics own my heart

Constant inside me

Your thoughts are my home

 

My love

My queen

My Heaven

My eternity

 

You are the full menu

And I want to gorge myself

Forever on you

 

So yeah

I kinda like you

A lot

 

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Composites

 

I think you’d find it easy

To believe I believe you are

The most beautiful girl

That ever lived

 

After a thousand lifetimes

I’m glad I found you

My Camas Winds love

 

I noticed you

Before I knew you

By chance the universe

Placed you before me

 

First blind then dismissive

Because of my insecurity

I denied you serious thought

 

I’d seen you through my life

In composite features

Of others

 

I fell in love with you

On a streetcar in Augsburg

In a span of 48 seconds

I embraced our life together

 

You wouldn’t look away

I couldn’t look away

You left at your stop

And I stayed

 

In the moment

It was your bold spirit

Your composite I loved

 

Soon I’d find your fire

I wanted you desperately

And almost left home

 

Instead I ran away

 

It wasn’t you

Just a composite

Your spirit’s doppelganger

 

I’d find you again

In someone’s eyes

Or some other feature

But it was never you

 

When you hit me

I froze like a deer

Just a piece of a moment

Frozen in time

 

I’ve been suspended since

 

My heart beats for you

This Valentine’s day

Our sixth together

 

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Just now

 

I didn’t know it at first

 

I learned your song

I reached out to you

Nothing returned

 

And then I learned

And then I sought

Then I fought rumors

And then I said no

 

And I asked God

Please give you

Half my Heaven

 

Because you can’t

You just can’t

Be forsaken

 

I won’t allow it

 

It was a day later

When I realized

I’d changed

 

No one else mattered

You’ll never be alone

I’ll be there

 

It took me a day

To question and decide

If I’ve grown enough

To not fail you

 

Yes I have

And no I won’t

 

Today’s March 1st

It’s been six years

 

And I know

That you’re beautiful

And you’re sensuous

I’m seduced by you

And you’re perfect

 

But it’s more

Like just now

I tremble inside

And every cord in me

Wants to be with you

 

And there’s no care

Beyond that

No yesterday

Or tomorrow

Just now

 

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March 17th

 

You are Ireland to me

 

Perfection without limits

Timeless beauty

And I cherish a moment

To celebrate you

 

I caress our time together

And dream of touching

Soft in still silence

Your warmth is my armor

 

Your trust

Is my honor to defend

Doubt is a word

You’ll never need again

 

My love

Will be your confidence

My soul your sanctuary

My only purpose

Is your peace

 

Wind won’t chill you

I won’t allow it to

 

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Irreplaceable

 

In 2010 I wrote a song

Called Three children

I didn’t know anyone

With three children

At that time

 

I still don’t

Except you

 

I’d love to meet them

And share that I understand

The hole in their heart

A mom they could hug

 

My heart has no such hole

Because I’m filled with you

 

Still I know

That you’re irreplaceable

To your children

And to me

 

Today is Easter

Jesus saved us

And six years ago

You saved me

 

And that change

Is irreplaceable too

 

Tonight we’ve prayed

And married again

 

Tonight I’ll hold you

And pull you into me

 

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