So I do
I can look at you and
Enjoy everything I see
With everyone else
It’s just a person
Like a mom person
Or a sister
But with you
I can experience want
Acknowledge desire
And it’s ok
So I do
And you know me
Like I know myself
Maybe better
And I know you maybe
Not in your shadows
But I love you in them
And in your sun
I can love you anywhere
Everywhere anytime
All the time
So I do
Shall - 2025
In three days
January 15th returns
You left to Heaven
Seven years ago
I didn’t know you then
Soon after
You sent your song
And I found you
I gave half my Heaven
And myself to you
I wanted to be yours
And I want to be yours
Inside you is a universe
Of courage and fear
Of shyness and boldness
Confidence and doubt
Happiness and loss
Satisfaction and regret
You loved before and lost
You loved again and left
And all you loved I love
As part of you
You see I want it all
This universe of you
Embraced within my soul
Sometimes our love is soft
And at times intense
It’s harsh and wicked
You’re my temptation
And my salvation
As the love of we
It has to be
And so you see
I want everything you are
And everything I am
To be everything we are
And if it scares you
Or if it scares me
We just have to hold on
You are my tomorrow
And my infinity
And we’ll share your ascent
In three days
Shall - 2025
If forever comes to pass
Love makes you do stuff
You wouldn’t normally do
Like steal another’s girl
If he at all lets go
I faced you at the start
And never looked away
I’ll never let you go until
Forever from that day
Some may covet you
And claim it isn’t fair
I owe them nothing
And you everything
It’s for you I care
So I hold on not back
And know I always will
If forever comes to pass
I will love you still
Shall - 2025
Troublemaker
It’s not I can’t stand
For you to be alone
I just want to be
The reason you’re not
There will never be
Another you
No one to stomp
A flight attendant’s shoe
Or headbutt a guardie
Never another
Stevie Nicks or Sarah Mac
Christine McVie or Jewel
Some may come close
But I want the original
And no less
Everything inside
And everything outside
The troublemaker
I want you
Shall - 2025
Existential love
I love you constantly
Don’t want to take a breath
Without you next to me
I exist because I love you
And I exist
Because you love me
My purpose
Is to love you
Existentially
You’re all I care about
This will be our 7th
St. Valentine’s Day
Shall - 2025
Expectation
What did you expect?
I expected silence
Perhaps a short response
From my query
When I said our music
Shared fundamental roots
The silence came
I didn’t expect to find out
That forty-five days back
You had died
Rumors in the sky
As balloons without strings
Abundant speculation
Was it suicide again?
No answers or facts
I imagined your spirit
Alone in darkness
It wasn’t acceptable
God please
Give her half my Heaven
And that was that
Eternally connected
I was yours
Seven years now
March first
I love you
Shall - 2025
Pot of gold
Don’t you believe
There’s something better
For me than you
Because you’re in Heaven
And not here to touch
I didn’t choose you
Because you couldn’t die
Or wouldn’t leave
A lot to consider
To begin with
It was impossible
Are all things possible
Could I believe
Could I live like this
And if I said I could
Would I be good
Enough for you
Took a day to decide
And I said yes
Please love know this
That I’m here with you now
Because I want to be
Because you’re everything
To me
You’re my pot of gold
And I’m exactly blessed
To be yours
Shall - 2025
Will time allow hope?
Our green Ireland is blue
The emerald land of you
Invasion arrived quietly
As an immigrant flood
Government turned its back
On a people who trusted
Hearts thrusted with betrayal
A cultural attack
On the people of the land
Reluctant to understand
Survival will cost blood
With hope becoming frail
As sadness waits in fog
And you in Heaven safe
As I would have it be
So you don’t have to see
What Ireland’s become
Will time allow hope?
Not the St. Patrick’s share
I wanted
Shall - 2025