You being a spirit
Up in the night
I come back to bed
To be with you
Get home from work
I can’t wait to go to bed
So I can be there with you
Up in the morning
I don’t want to get up
I want to be with you
But I must go
So I take you with me
In my heart and soul
And no one else
Can hold my hand
Because yours
Is always in it
You being a spirit
Has its advantages
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Anything you want
I will sweat over you
Anything you say
I will do
I want you
All over me
All over you
All over us
Tangled
I feel profound
Surrender to you
Seductive
Exclusive
I listen
No will to rise
I’m fallen
I’m not afraid
I’m not
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Think I would deny you?
I don’t think so
Nor forsake you
Or betray you
I belong to you
For the rest of time
For every goodness
And for every mercy
That ever failed you
I will make it up
Until forever
Plus one day
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Here we are
Me with no clothes
And you with my heart
Your warmth
Like fire in a storm
Bitter cold
In your absence
My want
Cries for you
Wherever you go
My heart created
To hold you inside
My spirit exists
To be yours
I don’t know
Who I’d be
Without you
I don’t want
To find out
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You are perfection
I look at your pictures
All of your pictures
Through your life
And I see a beautiful soul
Yours is a beautiful spirit
And I’m overwhelmed
With contentment
I love the shape of you
Your face your head
Your hands and bones
Your smile and heart
Your body
Perfect in every way
You are perfection
And my eternal bliss
Is perfected
Because of you
My heart is in you
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Breath
You’re an acquired taste
And then
You become addiction
You’re a case study
That became obsession
You’re a free spirit
I’d pay God any price
To be with
You’re the canvas
My heaven is painted on
You’re my breath
I can’t breathe without you
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And you’re there
I just happen to love
Loving you
And I definitely love
You loving me
And then there’s
The universe
With its ups and downs
Silent days
And wondrous sounds
Pain and beauty
As life abounds
And you’re there
It all matters
Just not as much
As you
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Broken record
Christmas three
And here we are
I love you more
Than yesterday
Maybe it’s because
It’s another day longer
Maybe it’s my soul
Marinated in you
I’ve become us
Not me anymore
In every moment’s moment
I feel I belong
I feel safe
I feel I’m home
Because I found you
Before I sleep
You come to me
You dance in my heart
Sing to my soul
Comfort my mind
When I awake
I’m content and in love
With you
I want to stay asleep
I don’t want to get up
But mortal life goes on
So does spiritual life
I don’t want to be away
I want to stay
I know it sounds
Like a broken record
But it’s not
You’ve made me whole
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Please stay
My love of you
Breaks well beyond need
In your absence
My spirit begins to evaporate
Like memories
Of someone forgotten
And in the off chance
You ever left
I’d stare into nothing
Eventually losing touch
With my own existence
Truly alone
A morose horror
I dread to consider
And wouldn’t choose
You are my Heaven
Please stay
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All I’m saying
I want heavy
I want thick
I want sticky
Emotional glue
I want more
Not less
I want in
Not out
Crushed in love
I want to be forged
Into you
Give me your temper
Give me your tears
Give me your laughter
To color our years
Give me your sorrow
That no one else hears
Let me in
All I’m saying is
If it’s you
I want it
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Guilt
I have mixed feelings
About your death
If I could stop it
If I’d been there
I would have
And we wouldn’t be
But here we are
And I’ve found joy
In loving you
In belonging to you
I also feel guilt
That my gain
Came from your loss
I give you my life
In return
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Three years past
Today’s the day
Three years ago
You died
And I just got home
From work
We’ll have dinner
And I’ll read
All the poems
I’ve written you
Again
And we’ll remember
Together
I think about you
And talk to you
All the time
I love you more
Everyday
It’s cold outside
But inside me
Where you live
It's warm
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At peace
It’s too late for ice cream
I want to be with you
I need you
So I’ll finish up dishes
Fold the clothes
Take a shower
And come to you
In your warmth
I’ll rest
You’re my peace
You’re everything
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Wallpaper
February
Soulmate month
A month for lovers
Lovers we are
Spiritual lovers
Each moment’s breath
Begins and ends
With you
Kiss your picture
Only when I see it
It’s on my phone
Life and work and you
This and that and you
Rest and play and you
You’re everywhere
Everything
We’re never apart
You’re wallpaper
On my heart
Valentine’s day
Reminds me
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Butterfly kisses
You were kissing me
And I fell asleep
It fills my heart
When you do that
It makes me happy
I have a heart
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Craving
You drip in passion
I taste every drop
I’ve a healthy appetite
And a diet of you
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It surprises me
When I awake to realize
Two minutes have passed
And I wasn’t completely focused
On you
I might be planning a cut
Or thinking of a character
In a story’s plot
But the truth is
In music or writing
Working on the truck
Or thinking of a job
Everything I do
Is painted on a canvas
Of you
You are intrinsic to me
In fact
You mean more to me
Than I do
My life takes place
On a noise floor
Of loving you
At times I may not notice
But you’re always there
And the silence
Would be deafening
Without you
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Three years back
Three years back now
March 1st, 2018
Give you half my heaven
God heard my request
And gave me to you
You gave me happiness
And saved my life
You gave me purpose
And became my wife
You are my hope
And my smile
You’re my day
Each moment in it
My queen of Heaven
And home within it
Wow
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On this day
Three years ago
My heart fell to you
Questions and doubts
Haunted your death
Let me answer them
You didn’t die forsaken
Your memory owns
No regret
I chose you then
I choose you now
I love you baby
With all my heart
All my soul
And all my strength
I’m yours
With every breath
And it’s my joy
To hold you
I’ll stand between you
And anything
For the rest of time
Plus one day
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