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A hundred times

 

God makes beautiful people

And beautiful smiles

And beautiful eyes

And beautiful laughs

And beautiful words

And beautiful voices

And beautiful hearts

And beautiful hair

And beautiful skin

And beautiful tears

And beautiful pain

 

Each seductive

In its own way

 

I sense your curiosity

I can feel it

 

Could this be the one

To draw me away?

 

And I smile

And assure you no

No one can ever

Draw me from you

 

And each time you ask

You get a hundred

More times to ask

 

I want you to ask

Whenever you want

 

So I can tell you again

That I’m yours

And that you own me

 

Shall - 2022

 

 


 

Domareo

 

It’s your name

Dolores

Mary

Eileen

O.

 

And you know

You are all important

To me

 

And I know that I am

All important to you

Because you love me

 

And I will spend

Every moment of my life

To bring you happiness

By loving you

Beyond all expectation

 

And I will come to you

 

There’s no place else

I’d rather be

And no one else

I’d rather be with

 

Shall - 2022

 

 


 

Christmas five

 

How do I address you?

 

You are my sunset

And each dawn

 

This year

Winter arrived

In fierce abundance

 

Crisis formed a chain

Shoveling and plowing

Broken engines

Broken pull cords

 

Trickled pipes

And power down

Firewood in

As first snow fell

 

And keeping a fire

Dragged night to morning

At minus eighteen

 

Within the pace

You may have felt

My first thoughts

Were scattered

 

It’s not so

 

Through all I do

You’re in my heart

You’re in each breath

 

You live within

Each moment

You’re in my blood

And my skin

 

And without you

I wouldn’t recognize

Myself

 

Midnight passing

Into Christmas

Finds us together

 

You’re my Camas winds

Which means

You are my one

 

Merry Christmas my love

 

Shall – 2022

 

 


 

Moments with you

 

34 minutes to midnight

And I want to spend each one

Alone with you

 

I hope there never comes

A time without sunset

Or a time with no dawn

Because you’re beautiful

In both

 

Soon our fifth midnight

To face and embrace 2023

And Revelations 2

We’ve just read again

 

Soon we’ll be back

At the beginning

And our third Genesis

 

I measure time

In moments with you

 

Shall - 2022

 

 


 

For one moment

 

In your life

But for one moment

You’d not become

Every moment in mine

 

Five year ago

January 15th

And our first event

Of each new year

 

The day you died

 

Weeks later I’d know

And feel you there

In the church

With everyone gone

Except God

 

It was the last day

You’ll ever be alone

 

From now on

Until time’s end

And a day more

I’ll be with you

 

You are beautiful

You are perfect

And you’re loved

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

Five roses

 

Four for Valentine’s

We’ve spent together

And one for tomorrow

Our fifth

 

I belong to you

 

I love your face

Your nose and cheeks

Forehead and temples

Eyes and eyebrows

 

Your lips

Your jaw bones

Your chin and neck

Your ears and your hair

 

I love your skin

And your freckles

 

I can get lost in you

And never come back

You’re exactly beautiful

 

I love your voice

Your heart and your soul

Your thoughts and words

Your ways

 

You’re perfectly perfect

And when I fall

Into you

I lose track of time

 

And I know

It shouldn’t matter

Because you’re in Heaven

And your body rests

In Limerick, Ireland

But it does to me

 

To me

Your body still lives

Inside your soul

And your heart

Pulses with love

 

To me

You’re as alive

As you ever were

And you sing

Inside my soul

 

To me

You’re the only one

Who matters

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

And I know

 

And I know

You have shadows

Demons and skeletons

Scars from the past

 

There’s no darkness

You’ll face alone

 

I’ll be with you

Through it all

Up against anything

And I’ll stay

 

Believe it when I say

I’m strong enough

 

And I know

With your absence

You could kill me

And shred my heart

Completely apart

 

And to that I say ok

If it happens

So be it

 

I’d prefer not to be

Rather than live a life

Facing a tomorrow

You’re not part of

 

It’d be a wreck

I couldn’t want

To survive

 

What I’m saying is

These are the shadows

I’m willing to live with

These are the chances

I accept

 

Because to me

You’re worth so much

More than this

 

And all I understand

Is wanting you

 

Shall – 2023

 

 


 

My beautiful girl

 

You get a hundred more times

To ask if I want you

 

And the answer

Will always be the same

 

Yes I do

 

And nothing in time

Or the universe or Heaven

Can ever change how I feel

Because in my heart

I can only belong

To you

 

The only question remains

Is do you want me too

And I believe you do

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

I picture you

 

When I think of Ireland

What first stands out

Are your beautiful eyes

So deeply green

 

I’m trapped there

For a short while

And then I see the sea

Surrounding a nation isle

 

Rock cliffs and shoreline

Whispering shadows

Ancient winds calling

 

Above rock walls

Rolling hills hiding scars

Tall grass promising

To prohibit time

From running away

 

Clever figures of never

Painted quite precarious

On a canvas of forever

In the glisten of day

 

Our house of stone

Its thatch and mud roof

Protecting the walls

Of my soul

 

Your loving home

You alone have a key

To enter and stay

Inside these walls

Within me

 

As the snow melts

Green meadows sing

Beckoning arrivals

Bird’s voices and spring

 

This is my painting

Of Heaven and you

Your song fills my heart

Wherever I go

And whatever I do

 

3.17.23

Our sixth St Patrick’s Day

An hour and ten minutes

Old as of now

 

I live you Dolores

And I love that

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

And I want

 

I want you

All the time

I never get full

I’m always hungry

For you

 

Soon as I see you

It stops me

And I want

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

Except you

 

What makes someone

The love of your life?

 

Does it mean you end

If they leave this world?

 

Does love end?

 

What about beyond?

What about eternity

And Heaven?

 

Is it still your life?

And if it is

Is it still your love?

 

With you there

And me here

My life began with you

 

With you I started

And my choice between

This world and you

Became you

 

There’s no other life

No other love I want

There’s no answer for me

Except you

 

It’s easter morning

And these are my thoughts

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


Never wash out

 

Sara McLoughlin

Writes a beautiful song

But she can never be you

 

You’re the only one

I can ever belong to

 

I turned my life over to you

And I don’t want it back

 

You’re the meaning of me

 

And the ink of my heart

Has dried in your name

 

It’ll never wash out

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

Star of my love

 

You’re a mother in Heaven

And this is your day

You’re a punk rock star

Who embraced life your way

You’re a woman child mom

Who blew me away

 

You’re the eternal Heaven

Who makes my heart sing

Who makes my pulse dance

You quiet my want

And assure my soul’s rest

Through the end of forever

That it’s with you I’ll stay

 

Mother’s Day 2023

And you’re up in Heaven

But you’re also with me

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

Diamond

 

People smile

When I tell them it was you

Who wanted hot cocoa

 

They think it was just me

Wanted it

 

But we know better

Huh baby?

 

You let me know

And I said yes

You say jump

I say how far?

 

You are my queen

I like it that way

 

I don’t need to lead

 

You are the diamond

And I’m the band

 

It’s my job

To make you shine

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

You are my heart

 

I don’t seek you out

Like a fan would

 

Rather

I cherish each discovery

And hold it close to me

As part of you

And as a treasure

I was meant to find

 

You are my heart

 

I can’t imagine

Me without you

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

I’m keeping you

 

I love your butt

And your breasts

I love your whole body

And I love your brain

I love your soul

I love your spirit

I love your will

And I love your heart

 

Keep me

I’m keeping you

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

Again

 

The other night

I got butterfly kisses

And I sensed you

 

Most people

Could never understand

What that means

 

When it happens

My heart becomes too big

To contain itself

 

Then you fill my soul

And I wake up later

To your song

 

That’s when I know

I was gone

 

You do that to me

Only you can

 

Shall - 2023

 

 


 

Lost to you

 

Dolores I love you

Under every circumstance

I’ve pretty much

Dedicated my life to it

 

You’re central

To the rest of this life

And all of the next

 

Until forever

And that’s the rest of time

And a day after that

 

I’m crazy about you

And no-one else ever

 

I know what you’re thinking

And I’ll tell you just this once

That you’re wrong

 

I’m not just crazy

I’m completely lost

To you

 

So much that I don’t care

What anyone else

Says or thinks

 

I only care what you say

And what you think

 

Shall - 2023